From the "Little Manhattan"

*originally posted on my facebook notes*

It's titled Little Manhattan, a movie about a boy, a 10 year-old boy, named Gabe who's falling in love with a girl, an 11 year-old girl, named Rosemary. The movie tells us about Gabe and his lovey dovey thing - the first lovey dovey thing ever happened in his life. Though it seems that Rosemary may love him back, it turns out she doesn't. Yet still, it's one of the cutest puppy-love story I ever watched, and yes, I've learned much from Gabe. An yes, it has made me wish I were 11 again :)

All scenes are worth watching, yet for me, the best part is the ending. It's when Gabe says this, his thought about love and Rosemary:

Love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools. It'll trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor. And what does it really get you in the end? Nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake. The truth is, there's gonna be other girls out there. I mean, I hope. But I'm never gonna get another first love. That one is always gonna be her.

while "In My Life" by The Beatles is playing in the background. What else can be any sweeter? :")

This is it.

This is an essay of a false independence day.
This is a story of a fictitious arrivederci.
This is a script of a giant leap,
to the last wine I wish I sipped.

I am a free little bird
in a gigantic cage.
I am a lovely little dirt
of your golden page.
This is my enormous sea
of your small glass of water.
Where I run and flee
before turning into an ember.

This is an essay of a false independence day.
This is a story of a fictitious arrivederci.
This is a script of a giant leap,
back to the first wine you handed me to sip.

J.

"O, beware, my lord, of jealousy;

It is the green-eyed monster which doth mock

The meat it feeds on; that cuckold lives in bliss

Who, certain of his fate, loves not wronger;

but, O, what damned minutes tells he o'er

Who dotes, yet doubts, suspects, yet strongly loves!"

- Othello, Shakespeare.

Have you ever felt that so-called jealousy? That you feel like doing anything just to get rid of the one that makes you jealous? Blame no one, nothing, but that green-eyed monster that lives beneath your skin.

What is it with jealousy? Is it a sign of a strong love, too strong that it eat you alive? Is it a sign of weak and fragile love? Too weak that it should be wrapped with yellow bands? Is it a sign of insecurity? A sign of distrust? A sign of unhandled desire of possessing?

Is it good? Is it bad? Is it safe? is it dangerous? Is it destructive? Is it normal? Is it abnormal? Is it magical? Is it uncanny? Is it heroic? Is it pathetic?

Is it the one that makes you curse? Is it the one that makes you cry? Is it the one that makes you laugh at that idiot slash yourself? Is it the one that makes you guess? Is it the one that makes you believe in truth that you've made up yourself?

Is it the one that hurts you, till you end up bearing the pain with your bare hands? Isn't it funny that you know how it sucks your energy, but you keep feeding it with your hatred and love?

Then you keep questioning why;

"Why this green-eyed monster stays in me; not you?"

Wait Dot Up Dot

Wait up

Comma
I'm tired of running
Exclamation
Would you stop
Pause
To have a drink of cold oranges
Question
I'm tired
Comma
Aren't you
Question
Our whole life is about running
to what is unseen
Exclamation
Why don't we walk
While having a nice talk
Question
I'll speak my mind
And you'll speak yours
Comma
Isn't it good
Question
Pause
Long pause
Wait up
Exclamation
Pause
Long pause
Wait
Pause
Up
Dot dot dot

Just an ordinary conversation though.

"Every single event in life is analyzable, if only you see it closer. And heck, I don't care if analyzable is not even a word!" - Sekar, 2011. - Yeah, it's me.

It was me and my boyfriend's bbm convo. It went like this, less or more:

* H (him), M (me)

H: What are you doin?

M: Streaming How I Met Your Mother.

H: Really love the series, don't you?

M: I do. I even want to use it as a corpus for my paper.

H: Waw. Ckckck.

M: What is it with "ckckck"? Is it something bad?

H: No, for me "ckckck" is a response for great things.

M: Well, for some people, it's not.

and it went blah blah blah, blah blah blah. No, we were not arguing; we were talking bout another topic. And it brought us here:

H: So really, you have to talk bout linguistic (for your paper)

M: "have to"? Nobody says that I have to do it, but I want to.

H: I support it.

M: But I didn't get your question. Is it not good or something?

H: Question? Which question?

M: I thought "so really, you have to talk bout linguistic" was a question. *ps. I was literally embarassed.

H: LOL. No, it's not.

M: I thought you forgot the question mark. Besides, people nowadays rarely put (proper) punctuations on their text *by text, I mean texting or instant messaging. Those stuff.

Now, here's how I analyze it. From the first convo, I didn't really got what my boyfriend wanted to say because the 'code' (that "ckckck") for me may mean something bad, while for him it's a good thing. Therefore, I gave him an unexpected response. Probably, he expected "thank you" or something like "yeah, it's great huh?" instead of "what is it with ckckck? is it something bad?".

And from the second convo, well there was a little misunderstanding because I thought he forgot to put the question mark, which was wrong because he actually wrote (or typed, whatever) a statement; not a question. And guess why I was being a bit defensive? Because, well, just put a question mark after his statement and imagine the tone. Well, it can be quite offensive right? It can be. But it can be something else too, depends on how you read it.

Just a little analysis towards an ordinary conversation.

ps. I've checked the dictionary and analyzable is totally a word. Nailed it! ;p