Just an ordinary conversation though.

"Every single event in life is analyzable, if only you see it closer. And heck, I don't care if analyzable is not even a word!" - Sekar, 2011. - Yeah, it's me.

It was me and my boyfriend's bbm convo. It went like this, less or more:

* H (him), M (me)

H: What are you doin?

M: Streaming How I Met Your Mother.

H: Really love the series, don't you?

M: I do. I even want to use it as a corpus for my paper.

H: Waw. Ckckck.

M: What is it with "ckckck"? Is it something bad?

H: No, for me "ckckck" is a response for great things.

M: Well, for some people, it's not.

and it went blah blah blah, blah blah blah. No, we were not arguing; we were talking bout another topic. And it brought us here:

H: So really, you have to talk bout linguistic (for your paper)

M: "have to"? Nobody says that I have to do it, but I want to.

H: I support it.

M: But I didn't get your question. Is it not good or something?

H: Question? Which question?

M: I thought "so really, you have to talk bout linguistic" was a question. *ps. I was literally embarassed.

H: LOL. No, it's not.

M: I thought you forgot the question mark. Besides, people nowadays rarely put (proper) punctuations on their text *by text, I mean texting or instant messaging. Those stuff.

Now, here's how I analyze it. From the first convo, I didn't really got what my boyfriend wanted to say because the 'code' (that "ckckck") for me may mean something bad, while for him it's a good thing. Therefore, I gave him an unexpected response. Probably, he expected "thank you" or something like "yeah, it's great huh?" instead of "what is it with ckckck? is it something bad?".

And from the second convo, well there was a little misunderstanding because I thought he forgot to put the question mark, which was wrong because he actually wrote (or typed, whatever) a statement; not a question. And guess why I was being a bit defensive? Because, well, just put a question mark after his statement and imagine the tone. Well, it can be quite offensive right? It can be. But it can be something else too, depends on how you read it.

Just a little analysis towards an ordinary conversation.

ps. I've checked the dictionary and analyzable is totally a word. Nailed it! ;p

The (evergreen) love.

"I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late." - Sophie, Letters to Juliet.

Speaking about true love and soulmate, I think it's the most mysterious thing in the world. It's wonderful, pleasant thing to talk about, and even dream about, yet it's enigmatic. How can we know when we'll find our true love? How can we be sure that it's the one, the true love? How can we be sure that it's the one who's being with us right now? How can we know that it's not somebody else, somewhere else, and it's just a matter of time we'll meet each other? Probably it's someone in the past, someone next to us, or someone we'll meet in the future like probably 10 years from now. Who knows, but God? And when will God let us know?

True love is something inexplicable, abstract and complicated. We can't put it into words and just read it aloud. People say that it's something to feel, most of the time, it's indescribable. How can we be sure that what we feels is a true love?

It is said that God made us meet some wrong people before we eventually meet the right one. In that case, the right one is the last person we fall for the rest of our life. Now how does it sound? Sounds like a lifetime search, doesn't it? Because as long as we still alive, chances are we're gonna meet the true love someday, and it's probably the one we had never think of.. or not the one we're being together with.

Now it's scary and uncanny, isn't it?

Yet, it's still wonderful. It gives us hope and dream.

For those who feel lonely of not finding their true love just yet, there's time.

And for those who think that they have already found it, there's faith.

And that's how true love brings something to pray about.

Implicitly said.

Have you ever noticed that many many times we say things implicitly? It's like when your mother tells you that the dinner is ready and you answer "I'm not hungry". It's like when your friends ask you to hang out together and you say that you've got lots of work to do. Well, they seem not to be connected to each other right? But they make a meaningful conversation though.

Sometimes saying things implicitly is good, especially when it will sound so harsh if you say it explicitly right away. Yeah, I said "sometimes", so it implicitly means that another "sometimes" is the opposite. It can lead you into trouble, either it's you who say things implicitly or it's you who try to figure out the implicit meaning from a discourse.

First of all, my friends, it will lead you into trouble if people don't really get what you really mean. You know what I mean. Saying things implicitly sometimes leads to an unexpected response because people don't get what you want to say because you say it implicitly. For example, you say "oh yeah I love Justin Bieber" to your friend who has a great admiration towards the Bieber's boy while you yourself just want to be cynical. If your friend don't get what you mean, you'll end up sitting listening to them blabbering about the Bieber's boy. And the voice will stay on your head for weeks that you can hardly hear your own voice. It's all because you were being implicitly cynical. It's fun to do as long as people get it, I'm telling you.

Second of all, if you, yes you, are the one who try to figure out implicit things from almost every discourse then you'll get screwed up. Well, unless you do it for your linguistic research paper. Although you're probably right, you're just screwed up. One example. A friend of mine, let's call her Unknown, does too much analysis towards his boyfriend's sayings. It's like every single line means something.. implicitly. And if her boyfriend tells her that he really does not mean it that way, she won't easily buy it. Chances are her boyfriend does not mean it consciously, but deep inside his subconscious mind, he does mean it. Although she's probably right and most of time she just exaggerates it and overreacts, it leads to something not good. Most of the time is in form of a pointless debate that may reduce her to tears. Well, told you, it's one of my friends' story; not mine.

Yeah, my friends. World is full of many implicit things. It's just, not everything is implicit.

And you may intend to say things implicitly, but if people don't get that you're trying to say things implicitly, what's the point? Although you're not trying to say things directly because you're trying to say it implicitly, but if people still don't get the real meaning, you fail of saying things implicitly. Because it's called implicit if you say it implicitly and people can get it.

Getting confused? I'm outta here.

Let's make mistake.

‎"So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake, because then you go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not." - Lily Aldrin, How I Met Your Mother.

Sometimes I hate the words "do not do this" or "do not do that", especially when there is no further explanation about "why". And yeah, sometimes I hate myself for saying those words to myself just because I'm afraid that the result will be disappointing. I mean, who am I to judge whether what I'm going to do is a mistake or not. What if it's not? And though in the end it is, at least I won't spend my whole life wondering "what if".

I guess as long as I can't google it and find that what I'm gonna do next will positively bring me to death because I'm about to consume such a dangerous poisonous lethal chemical subtances.. I'd better find out whether it's a mistake or not. Hey that's life.

While I'm blogging.

Do you have any special song that when you listen to it, your heart will race and your mind will travel to somewhere in the past? It will bring back some memories that you won't forget because it's either too beautiful or too painful. Whatever feelings you have towards it, doesn't matter because it's attached on your mind, and most of the time it's hidden until a significant song brings it to the surface.

I do have those songs, and you can find two of them by visiting a friend of mine's blog here. Sometimes I just visit her blog to listen to the songs, let them play, and I'll continue blogging while being tickled by the songs. There are some reasons why I don't put them on my own playlist; either on my own blog or my computer. One of the reasons is when I listen to them through my friend's blog, It will exactly bring back some certain scenes from the past which can't be replayed anywhere but my mind. I want to let them be just the way they are.

Uncanny, isn't it?