What if we had never asked this?

"Has this world been so kind to you that you should leave with regret? There are better things ahead than any we leave behind." - C.S. Lewis

What's it with what if + past perfect tense? They build a scary question. Why it should exist? Why we ask ourselves 'what if' plus thing we had done or had never done? Why we ask somebody else 'what if' plus thing they had done or had never done? Why we ask life this question? It's a never-ending question wrapped in an unsolved enigma. We would get nothing but regret. Then we would just waste our time thinking why we did or never did this and that... and what's the point of that? Wishing time-travel were real?

Life is a complicated huge maze with many doors, and time is a horrifying big monster who's chasing you wherever you go. You can just stand still, going nowhere, and let the monster eat you alive. Or you may pick one of those doors when you know that every door will always lead you somewhere; you just don't have any idea where it will lead you. Spreading that past-perfect-what-if question means betraying your decision. It's like staring at those doors behind you while you're having others right in front of you. Run, baby, run! Time is running after you and you're just standing wondering 'what if' you had chosen another door? You're screwed. It's past perfect; it's completely perfectly done in the past and you just can't go back.

This question is useless; an absolute nonsense. What do you expect? Firstly, it would never change what you've been through. And secondly, you would never know.

We would never know.

As though it's easy to let it go?

That's my current question. "What if I had never asked this?"